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tired BUT feel glad... finish the compile of a report tat is due on MONDAY, tmr afternn after every1 has review then can print and release a bit of stress...

i guess i never really felt SO stress or anxious abt my project n studies, i guess UNI is really different, though sum might say SIM.. chey easy to pass got $$ can le... but i guess is partially true... hmm... maybe LOCAL uni is even tougher tats Y... private is consider "easy"... wAhAhA...

can U imagine tat i rather buy food n come home after prac but not joining SaSA, XiuXiu they all n go walk walk... n have dinner... wAh... i really cannot imagine tis is me sia...

pressure is not jus on project but coming exam... cant afford to fail... cos is SO expensive to repeat module... i guess i'm gonna collapsed if i gonna fail any module though i'm always fill with more than 50% confident... believe in myself tat will not fail but it jus seems hard to convince myself now in RMIT(SIM)...

while having pressure on studies... during band prac was another heart attack... another few bags of sand throw onto me... i know the negative... current stage i jus cant do anything... "got heart no energy" wAhAhA... is true tat who dun wan 2 play gd sound... gd music... when i'm super depressed... i will think tat isit to do with talent and interest? isit cos i've stop improving since yr3... tats why i carried the though tat i cant improve anymore... n i lost interest in it... did i continue to be in band jus to have connection with band n remain as a flautist... and to make my life a little more colourful... i'm doing sth veri irresponsible now... i'm gonna throw away all these stuff for 2 weeks... ignore... dun bother... i wanna haf full commitments on my project n presentation... i wanna settle my bday party... i wanna enjoy my bday party...

i think i feel better now... ranting out is so gd... but feel so naked... cos i wonder how my dearest band friends will think after reading my post...i'm so sorry... (",)

sumtimes i wonder... the kaixinguo karen is still around or already gone as she grows older n older....
maybe i shld start eating kaixinguo... ("how leng ah")

so tired... time 4 bed... gd nite or maybe gd morning... (",)