TGIF... i shld be happy but dunno wats wrong with me oso... is still CNY period... everyone is still enjoying... weekend program are packed nicely... but today or i shld say since yesterday... my mood was down... dunno is becos too long no school then very sianz or wat so ever... or issit becos of him?

friday night seems so boring n sianzz... wanted to go out but thinking tat there is class tmr make me came back home... i think is very bad of me to be so depressed during CNY period... but i think is a good thing oso... a new year a new start... seems like i've being given a hard knock on my head... a eraser jus went thru my heart... i dunno how to say la... but jus felt different... maybe i had enough... maybe i'm afraid... i'm kind of disappointed n it makes me feel who are serious n who are jus trying to know more abt him... i wanted to be frank...wanted to let u know the truth...but why are u hiding so many things...

i keep telling myself... i'm jus too sensitive...n thinking too much... i shld not believe or bother abt wat he says... i shld haf faith in the rest... i shld believe in the rest... i really didnt choose this path... i said b4... it jus leads me into it without any other choice... i wont nv wanna to be in tis situation iF GOD would have lay down the choice for me to choose... i would rather lead a boring n peaceful life for the past 2 years... without being in current state...


"feeling like an overblown ballon... going to explode anytime...haizZzZzZ..."