Do u also have someone in mind that will be forever a special person... or maybe since long time ago... he is a special someone till this day that u realise that everything shld be ended...

I do have sumone... like tis.. recently i realise that he found his true one... although i’ve no rights to be jealous or wat... but i jus dun feel good... it seems like i’ve lost sumone tat i can rely on... he said... i can find him whenever i need... however he oso did added in... as long as he can... now tis come to use... he no longer can... no longer can fulfil all those dreams tat we once shared...

I know... tis seems so selfish of me... but i really still have lots of things tat i wanna tell him... not wanting to be with him... but jus to let him know what happen in the past and clarify all those misunderstanding and those undefined feelings... i guess it will be a forever regret in my teenage time... i wont say in my life... cos it happens when i was still young and childish...
Of cos, i will give him blessing... truly... i jus feel weird... maybe cos of those unsaid stuff... maybe cos of those promises he gave... maybe bcos he is the one who showed me how to love sumone wholeheartedly...

I guess is all playing on me... fate makes me saw his love when the love he had for me was at the lowest... fate makes me hurt him so much unconsciously.... fate makes me fall for him when everything was abt to end... memories of less than 12 hours... seems like a long period.. seems like forever... maybe the memories for the 3 yrs meant more than the 12 hours...

I dunno wat will be my reaction when i see them the next time... i dun wish to affect him and i seriously hope tat whatever my reaction will be it shall not affect him...i dun wan to cause any unhappiness for him... all i ask is he will be happy and smiling always... i guess i owe him on tat...

haizz.... little lost ger... (",)