haizz... dunno wats wrong with me again... maybe recently keep thinking my feelings... tats why the answer came back to HIM again...

really cannot imagine... tis has been happening for almost 1.5yrs... previously thought i've let go... think thru... see thru... but why do i miss him so terrible today... dunno why... really miss him...hoping tat will see him... issit cos i'm feeling lost and weak again... though he might not be listening to me with full attention but it does help when chatting with him... i said "i miss u"... did u hear it? even if it seems to be ur dream... i hope u did heard it... jus wanna let u know... i'm not tat perfect too... though ur sentence still sound in my mind... knowing tat i shld not continue tis... but i jus cant control... if really one day i tells u tat i'm in love with sumone else... wats ur reaction??? i guess u will feel glad... glad tat i can let u go...BUT Can i jus ask for a bit of saddness... slightly upset... jus a little...little affected... would tat be possible?

sumtimes i really envy the others... but i know where i stand... and i guess i shld be contented?

missing u...